i need him :'(((

as if I knew this would happen. i've never felt such great love for someone. never. he was the first.  I suffer, weep, mourn. because of him I continued life. He is my happiness, my hopes for a better start to the day, my love .. and where they are now, and his words "I love you"? Missing they.sada them says to another, knows that I am suffering, grieving for him.
because him i  don't sank alcohol. but now, i will! i will drink much, maybe that give me him back.




dear friends (if i can call you like that) give me him back before i die. 


Me and Emilio, summer 2011, moscow biggest park.